I didn’t feel like writing these last few days. Heck, I didn’t feel like doing much of anything for that matter. I being surrounded by so much negative energy, it feels like it swallows me whole. Like I am the most evilest person in the whole wide world. That kind of energy you normally would get rid of if it’s hurting you, but this one is like the yellow power ring of Sinestro. That partially due to a weakness in the green power rings, preventing them from directly affecting the color yellow. I can’t defeat it, and so I will have to find a way to deal with it. Together with a still unidentified but certainly present pain stuck somewhere in my belly, is not helping me keeping my positive attitude on the highest level.
Today, my Sinestro is quiet.
The pain in my belly is still reminding me of its presence, but I feel like doing something nice. Tomorrow we will go to the artist supply shop in Haarlem. I want to start a new project. I will order a large canvas, and will start painting again. I have an image in my head for quite a while now, and it’s time for it to be put on canvas. There is still a story left with unfinished drawings about Benjamin and Kuzco, but I just can’t put my mind to it, to sit and focus only on the story. So this project would be perfect. I can start and stop at any moment, and oil paint that will be drying on the canvas, will make the house smell nice. I love the smell of paint. It’s been a while since I have been painting. I always wonder if it’s still there, the feeling, the touch.
I will check my box of paint, which ones I have to restock or add, and which brushes have dried out, and need to be replaced. And I will sand off my old mixing board, get rid of all those lumps of old paint.
I’m looking forward to this new project.